A compromise has to be made.

There comes a time when a person's effort is not enough. There's only so much one person can pull before the uneven weight collapses it all. I can honestly say this past week has been one of the worst weeks I've had in a long time. My body has actually gotten to the point of fighting me. As of two days ago I could no longer control my emotions. It was just too much. I was sad and angry and upset and couldn't convince myself otherwise. It's a scary thing when you reach that point.

I sat on my bed telling myself it's not that bad, I can get past this. Yet, could not actually make myself believe it. There's been a lot of stress floating around me lately and I let it get to me. I need to be one of those people who just lets it flow and not bother them. Yet, I cannot change the way I react (despite how badly I want to right now).

I need to stop the self pity party and suck it up. I just don't know how to.

What a wallowing, pathetic feeling. Ugh.